Tag Archives: fear

drama e’ry day

Posted on August 14, 2018 by GirlZoot

I’ve worked in customer service a long long time. I’m tired. Tired of being nice, of smiling and nodding, of caring about everyone’s problem before caring about my own. Years ago I worked with a really good friend at a … Continue reading →

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Snotty Tissues

Posted on November 15, 2016 by GirlZoot

It has been a week since I sat on my couch watching election results come back on my television. While I sat there with my nausea rising and my brain slowly catching fire, all I could think was that my … Continue reading →

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Thinking in the yard.

Posted on May 3, 2016 by GirlZoot

I like to think that at some point along the way I was actually an excited and exuberant person. I like to think that once upon a time I had original and amazing ideas. Sometimes I feel like that person … Continue reading →

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#prayforpeace

Posted on November 14, 2015 by GirlZoot
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Just a Thought

Posted on October 22, 2015 by GirlZoot

The cracking ice inside her was being replaced with a spongy fear, as if a monster were trying to swim up out of her guts and swallow her whole. She bit her lower lip and breathed hard, trying to drive … Continue reading →

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Just a Thought

Posted on June 7, 2014 by GirlZoot

The only rule that ever made sense to me I learned from a history, not an economics, professor at Wharton. “Fear,” he used to say, “fear is the most valuable commodity in the universe.” That blew me away. “Turn on … Continue reading →

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Just a Thought

Posted on May 23, 2014 by GirlZoot

Brilliance. Sheer fucking brilliance. Conventional executions might have reinforced discipline, might have restored order from the top down, but by making us all accomplices, they held us together not just by fear, but by guilt as well. We could have … Continue reading →

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Just a Thought

Posted on May 19, 2014 by GirlZoot

Personally, I think that’s a big ’ole sack of it. Sure, we were unprepared, our tools, our training, everything I just talked about, all one class-A, gold-standard clusterfuck, but the weapon that really failed wasn’t something that rolled off an … Continue reading →

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Birds fall from the roof of this building, and I keep hearing Mr. Mastadon Farm by Cake playing in my head.

Posted on September 26, 2013 by GirlZoot

There are so many different people now – I am overwhelmed, but I’m trying to keep all my information together, all my thoughts in order, all my ideas together. Something about the constant rotation of people is distressing and structure … Continue reading →

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We need adult supervision.

Posted on September 25, 2013 by GirlZoot

I’m nervous about what comes next. I am unsure about investing in, or attempting to be myself. I am unsure about putting my faith in myself. People do it. People put faith in themselves; people even put faith in me. … Continue reading →

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