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Just a Thought

She got rid of me because I knew she wasn’t perfect. —Gillian Flynn/Gone Girl

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mind control

I feel like I wake up sometimes and my body has decided to destroy me instead of work with me. I want to be in control, of my body, or my mind maybe, or just something. I know I’m in … Continue reading

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Just a Thought

Vincent Van Gogh was a “tormented genius” the way Jimi Hendrix was a “guitar player.” I remember, reading Stephen King’s On Writing, when he said something about how “your art needs to be a function of your life, not the … Continue reading

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Not all that helpful in the end.

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Shame

To say that this movie is sad is to not emphasize the brutality and pain of this movie enough. To say that this movie deals with addiction in a way that is uncomfortable to watch, deal with, and even be … Continue reading

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Just a Thought

He hummed with the trumpet and held me close, and he felt so familiar and not familiar, so mine and not mine. —Aimee Bender/The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake

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Just a Thought

I wouldn’t much care except the sight of my body brings back the memory of the pain. And why I was in pain. And what happened just before the pain started. And how I watched my little sister become a … Continue reading

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Just a Thought

My mother has to save the strongest for the worst pain, but what is the worst pain? To me, it’s always the pain that is present. If I were in charge, those painkillers would be gone in a day because … Continue reading

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My Brain is Trying to Kill Me

For months and months my brain and I have been on good terms. Nothing wrong on either end. This week though, my brain has decided to start a revolution. Seizures all fucking night Sunday. I woke up with blood in … Continue reading

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Spread

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