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Birds fall from the roof of this building, and I keep hearing Mr. Mastadon Farm by Cake playing in my head.

There are so many different people now – I am overwhelmed, but I’m trying to keep all my information together, all my thoughts in order, all my ideas together. Something about the constant rotation of people is distressing and structure … Continue reading

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We need adult supervision.

I’m nervous about what comes next. I am unsure about investing in, or attempting to be myself. I am unsure about putting my faith in myself. People do it. People put faith in themselves; people even put faith in me. … Continue reading

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Elopement Precautions – not as romantic as one might imagine.

There are just so many people coming and going, my skull is killing me and I know the noise level will rise to a point where I will lose all interest in the words and my comfort will be gone … Continue reading

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Someone has taped a dead ladybug to the forest painting in the group room. I can’t decide if that is a sweet gesture or horrible reality.

The day is another blur. The increase in my medication is making my brain a little slow, a little wobbly. I think it will be better, but I’m still unsure. Still nervous about going forward so fast and yet the … Continue reading

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There is a general understanding that life is better with your fucking phone.

Things feel largely out of proportion. Small things seem huge, and the really big issues feel much more easily put off so I can just concentrate on the small things. If I don’t have shoes I don’t have to think … Continue reading

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There is a squirrel in a tree looking up at me, the tastiest nut he could ever see.

There are faces and names and they swim in and out. I think descriptions at them to try and keep them separate in my head. So many have children. So many have hopes. So many have lives. We all have … Continue reading

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Our facility is located behind a Toys-R-Us. There is some kind of joke there, other than cosmic.

I keep thinking to myself that I’ve made the right decision. Right? This has to be the right decision. You have to make a good decision to get better. That is what they keep telling me. They they they they … Continue reading

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Let me preface…

Let me state a relatively obvious fact. I have a problem with depression. Sometimes this problem is very big. Sometimes this problem is small enough to be livable and I walk around just like a person with no problems at … Continue reading

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Dark Thoughts, Dark Eyes, Dark

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Start Somewhere

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